Strangers Don't Love Strangers

I found the website of another photographer today. He's quite well known but I had only heard 'of ' him and never really learned anything of 'why' he is so well know. When I went to his web site I was overcome with emotion at the beautiful, soul touching images.
I wrote him a letter, poetic and over flowing with emotion. I sent him love and appreciation for the beauty in his art.
He simply wrote back ' I don't know what to say.'
I had to laugh.
I guess strangers aren't supposed to love strangers.
And when they do, strangers don't know how to react.
It doesn't matter.
I still love him.
With all my heart and soul!

Draw unto me

All the souls that have a need, draw unto me.

I heard a woman speak the other day about the energies here in Colorado Springs that are related to a mass shift coming. She went on and on about the negative symptoms everyone is having (crying all the time, headaches, intestinal upset....the list goes on). She said that everyone having these abnormal symptoms were 'tuning in' to the energy shift.

I found it to be odd. I've not had any of those symptoms. Instead, I've felt in an increase of boundless love in me, pouring from me to all of life. I've felt more at peace and more in love with life. I've found it easier to look upon another person and see the divine in them. I am a wellspring of joy and well wishes for others. Happiness comes easily to me. I find joy in the smallest things....the slow drops of hot water falling from the faucet into my hand. I am almost mesmerized by these little joys.

I am experiencing an amazing number of similar minded people just 'finding me' somehow, drawn to me.
I dreamed while awake in bed last night of magnetic dust from a childhood game. I was in the center and all these particles were being drawn to me. The mass became so great and we exploded with love. It was brilliant and beautiful.
My hot tears poured down my cheeks and into my ears and hair. I let it dry there, choosing not to wipe it away. I thought they would bless my hearing today, that I might hear something I needed to hear.
Today I heard the voices of fear. So many around me being fearful. Then a song.......'The heart of the matter' going on about forgiveness. I knew it was for me.

I walked five miles and when crossing the main road I waited for the light. I sent my heart out to all the persons driving the cars turning through the intersections. I said 'I LOVE YOU' to each of them, sending my heart at the same time.

One man felt it, and felt it strongly. He turned, almost violently, and looked at me with shock! I smiled at him and repeated 'I LOVE YOU' with my heart. No words. No motions. Just standing there in my t-shirt and sneakers waiting for the light to turn. He stared at me all until he could see me no more.

Vibrations are real.

I am not crazy.

You are not crazy.

The significance revealed!

After discarding this blog for many months, I came back to it today because my husband came to me a week ago and told me he thought it was time to go back into massage therapy. I then enrolled in the next year long course that begins on April 15th. I was reading the old posts on this blog and decided to count 33 days away from April 7th and was very surprised to find that it falls exactly on Mother's Day!!!!!! The day I was told I would be working for the Mother Mary! How interesting is that??!!! I still have no understanding of the significance of all this though!

Guide Me. I am seeking.

Much love to all

a tender dream

I stand on cliffs of tender dreams
looking out and far below
I hear the ocean somewhere, there
but I cannot believe you'd be this close
are you there?
Is that you?
anticipation grows
no, a yearning from within the soul
that never breathes the air of satisfaction
a hunger that is never fed
beckons me

I breathe a sigh from the edge of reason
and fall toward you
to take my last breath
and die inside you
swallow me whole
I beg you

I touch the scar
that lies just over my heart
where love once burned
where love was cut from
by screaming protest
I touch the scar
proof that you once existed
and with perverse pleasure
I pretend you still live
inside me

I breathe a sigh
catching, halting
in perfect bliss
I fall toward you
and breathe you in, my final sigh
consume me
I beg you
I will die inside you
forever inside you

for you are my tender dream

September 8th 2007 and the disappearing feather

Today my littlest daughter, Cassie, came to me and told me that she had friendly ghosts with her. I asked her where they are and she said they are in her room but they go with her lots of places. She told me they were with here then, right behind her. She said they were the ones that used to make scratching sounds on her ceiling at night (my husband and I spent many nights trying to find the source of the scratching sounds that frightened her) She said that they don't do that anymore because one night she just decided to start talking to them and she asked them to stop so they did. I asked her what they talk about and she said they talk about whatever Cassie feels like talking about. Then she said that one of her ghosts wasn't there right now and that he couldn't come with them but the others were going to send him in a box. I asked her 'you mean mail him in a box, like that?' and she looked puzzled and said "I don't know. They just said they'd send him in a box."
Later on two of my daughers and my son were watching John Edwards, Cross Country (he's a psychic medium that conveys messages from dead relatives) I noticed that they had the image of white feathers swiping from one side of the screen to the other when they would segue to another feature. All of a sudden a white feather came down from the ceiling and floated and swirled around in front of the television set and then disappeared. The girls and I all saw it. Devin did not. We all got up and searched around the television looking for the feather. It was clearly a white feather about 3 inches long. I did not wonder what it was. I SAW that it was a white feather. We couldn't find it anywhere. I questioned each of the kids what they saw and the girls both said they saw a white feather floating and then Cassie described to me how it was floating. What do you make of that?
When I went to bed I only felt a low humming inside my body and a light pulsing sensation. I fell asleep almost right away so I did not have the sensation of any beings there and no conversaton. I had a lot of dreams and wasn't ready to get out of bed until 9:30 this morning.

September 7th, 2007

I went to Starbucks for a Venti Pumpkin Spice Latte and clearly in my ear, right after ordering, I heard 'It would do you better to have your coffee without milk.' I then saw an image of the lower intestines and how coffee, plain, is beneficial.
Later in the day when I got a diet coke I heard 'Leave that from your diet. Drink tea instead. Drinking it with lemon is good for your body.' I then was given an impression of acid and alkeline balance. I do not understant this though. Not one bit. So don't ask me. = ) If anyone else has a clue though I'd like to hear it.
On this night at bed time I was extremely tired and felt a little weary that I would have to participate in energy work. It began nearly the second I closed my eyes. I felt my stomache open up and could see yellow light. I could feel the pulsing of it in my body. I fell asleep very quickly and then all of a sudden I awoke to my body 'jittering'. My entire body was twitching and I KNEW that the energy work had continued while I slept. I very happy to know that my participation wasn't required!
When I use the word KNEW in all capitals it is to convey that it is knowledge that cannot be challenged in my mind. It is knowledge that comes to me with absolute truth and that it is impossible to receive information in that way and not know that it is perfect truth. My mind cannot even conceive of questioning the validity of that truth.

September 6th, 2007

If I thought I had dreamed everything the night before I don't think it now. The entire day of burning hands on fire and the experiences at bed time convinced me otherwise. I went to bed and as soon as I closed my eyes I saw three beings in front of me. I heard 'Now we begin'. I took a deep breath and slowly let it out and then I saw the beings sending me light that went into my forehead. I had a feeling of fullness and pressure and felt the top of my head open again and could feel energy pouring through. They then moved the light to my throat area and then to my chest. This lasted approximately 10 minutes. I asked them what the significance of 7 months of energy work was for and I heard 'We are raising your vibrational frequency. It must be done in small adjustments. Physically, you could not survive it being done at once.' I think I asked 'what for' or something like that because just as I was thinking of formulating a question, the answer came to me before I even asked it. I heard 'In order for you to be a conduit of the healing energy, you must raise your vibrational frequency. To give the energy you must first be able to receive it and you may not receive it in it's completeness if you vibrate at a lower frequency.' I was then told to do things on a personal level to assist them. I was told to let go of anger feelings as much as possible when they arise and try to practice love more often. I was also told to eat more fruit.